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About Me

Hello, my name is Chris

Not many people care about me
Please don't talk to me if you're fake.

I’m a boy, don’t mistake me for a girl because I wear girl clothing and have a feminine body. People on myspace make me jealous because I’ll never be as aesthetically beautiful as them. Don’t mistake me for some average scene boy because there is more to me than you will ever know. Everyone is original; we are all onions, same shape, form, but many layers and many tears that shed as we get deeper. You have to be strong to peel off every layer. I follow trends because it’s a natural human need… the need to belong in their society. The internet is a society, we conform to it, it’s an alternate world so we can escape, escapade away. It’s foolish to say your style is unique; unconsciously this community shaped your style, your behavior, your morals, your way of thinking. Much like real life; you’re different in real life; you’re identical online.

I’m not book smart, or generally intelligent, but I have a lot of wisdom from experiences in my life. It’s been a bumpy road with plenty of stories to tell, plenty of advice, and plenty of events that have shaped who I am. I’ve accepted that I won’t always be perfect, visually and intrinsically. We all strive for something better than ourselves and forget what we already have. I’d rather perfect something I’m good at than try to improve something I am. I’ve gotten plenty of criticism over the years and many compliments to make up for those inefficiencies. You want to send me hate, lets run, because I feed off it, I live for hate because being in a perfect world teaches you to be ignorant, teaches you to be soft, and in turn lets people walk on you.

I’m not nice, but I’m respectful. Give me a reason to disrespect you and I will. I’m friendly, but an asshole, I’m giving, but I’m selfish. I’m philanthropic, but I’m greedy. I’m fake, but I’m real. Get to know me more and you’ll understand these contradictions. I don’t judge people, I judge them on the potential they have to become something stronger.

My future is still a mystery to me. I love fashion and hair, and hope to be a fashion designer someday. I’ve been an artist since I’ve known what art was. I lack motivation, I lack the will to excel, it’s hard for me to get out of bed in the morning, and it’s hard for me to care. I don’t know what I’ll do in life or if it will just pass me by. It scares me everyday.

I’m not very deep, but I try. I have no friends, and I don’t understand why. I won’t try hard to please you; I won’t change myself for you. I want to grow up without modification; people contribute to the way you are; if you want to be one of those people. Talk to me.

My Interests

Music

Movies

Television

Books