gawd....:'(
omfg....i was on webcam today at my friends house with this girl named kayla...and shes was fuckin pissed at someone....and she was cussing me out....and she was talking about killing herself...and i told her she was crazy....and she got a rope....and i kept telling her to stop...and she said you cant fuckin make me....so i started crying...and she told me i was the best friend anyone could ever ask for....and i cried harder....she got on her chair....i cut myself...she saw....so....she put one foot off....she told me to stop..and not to hurt myself....and told me she would never forget about me...and to look up at the brightest star...and that would be her....and she loved me more than anyone...even her bf....and i cried as hard as i could...shaking my head no..but she did anyway...not caring....and...hung herself....i sat there...watching her hang from the ceiling....with tears pouring down my face.....didnt know what to do....i didnt think i could live anymore....she was my best friend...and more....she was like my sister...i never cared about her as much as i cared about anyone....she was my day...my night...my everything...she was the only reason i woke up everyday....smiled...went to school....loved....she made me do this i never thought i could do....but now that shes gone..i dont know what to do anymore....i just...want to die....i really do....but i know thats not gonna make anything better....so im not...dont think i am....i want to live my life...and experience new things...be with ryan..and go see him one day.....but...she'll always be in my heart..no matter what...and no one is taking her place.....she was my baby girl...and more...my cuppiecake....if you knew her..her username is xxxkaykayxxx....please dont forget her...[if you knew her]...shes the best girl anyone can ask for....i love you kayla....-tears-
this is a song for kayla...that reminds me of her....
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[ Chorus ]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to
always get me through the day and
make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I
love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to
always get me through the day and
make it ok
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah yeahhh
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to
feel you here with me, yeah
When you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone the face i came
to know is missing too
When you're gone all the words i need to hear
will always get me through the day
and make it ok
I miss you
R.I.P. kayla...i love you forever....
